solarstory replied to your post: Ugh, hate birthdays…
I keep looking back on it, how foolish I had been
I gave you all I had to give
In return you gave me all your issues, ot your trust
I had to decide that was not a way to live
Were there a list of regrets
I know it would have names
But I would need mine at the top
For I share half the blame
Attacking straight to the psyche and it’s unlikely you’ll walk out alive so you best run if you want to survive.
solarstory replied to your post: Ugh, hate birthdays…
But your birthday isn’t till next week.
And that has bearing on my hatred for birthdays how? It only makes it stronger…
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I hate people showing up uninvited more, I was just getting to sleep… ugh
Ugh, hate birthdays…
She said thank you for being me but it’s clear to see it’s all I can be like a disease that infects roots to leaves in this forest like seas of make believe of the kind of shapes only clouds achieve
Is it ok to dwell on this every day like the pain just won’t go away and it’s too much to say so when they say let it out I just shake my head in doubt not wanting to go another bout with these feelings that are keeping me down it’s like the weight of the earth pulls me to the ground and flattens me till I can’t make a sound
Scars fade long before the memories of days where things were too soft and we had a hand to grab when lost and now it’s a big world full of hurt no one to brush off the dirt gotta stand up and face it yourself because it’s your life now and it’s a personal hell.